An Uphill battle

So these past couple of days have been a struggle for me. It is sad when you give someone all you have to offer, fight for them through thick and thin. Trying to figure out and solve their problems and believing every word that comes out of their mouth.

Trying to understand why someone would not appreciate that and treasure and cherish it. For me I realized that it is easy to loose trust in someone no matter how hard you try to win their hearts. Here I was thinking of my worst fear of loosing someone special becoming a stranger to them in a split second and all along in front of my brown eyes, this was just someone I thought I knew, someone I trusted and give in to every argument and decision.

When standing right in front of you is everything you could ask for , and maybe  it is wrapped in a different color and come in a different box size, but here it is , your wishes and dreams in that one gift, one present one person. That only if you take the time to unravel and remove the wrapping of flaws and mistakes of the past, can you truly see someone's heart and feelings and emotions. That at some point, your lives meet and from then on you travel the same path, not because you want to, but because it was always the plan.

Sadly, in times of despair and haste we tend to forget about unraveling the present and only see how badly it wrapped and how small or big it is on the outside. We forget about looking in and taking a peek and maybe giving it a chance to prove itself worthy, and joyful in your life. So as I may have lost a present in my life, I took the time to realize all the other amazing gifts I have gotten, been given and received along my 19 years of existence. I thank everyone of you all who make this journey and amazing one for me, the ones who have hurts me, going to hurt me, making me smile, laugh and literally crack up into a fit of laughter, I thank you all for molding and changing my life into what it is today. For making me the woman I am and going to be, and for all, take note ; I am not giving up. :))