An Uphill battle

So these past couple of days have been a struggle for me. It is sad when you give someone all you have to offer, fight for them through thick and thin. Trying to figure out and solve their problems and believing every word that comes out of their mouth.

Trying to understand why someone would not appreciate that and treasure and cherish it. For me I realized that it is easy to loose trust in someone no matter how hard you try to win their hearts. Here I was thinking of my worst fear of loosing someone special becoming a stranger to them in a split second and all along in front of my brown eyes, this was just someone I thought I knew, someone I trusted and give in to every argument and decision.

When standing right in front of you is everything you could ask for , and maybe  it is wrapped in a different color and come in a different box size, but here it is , your wishes and dreams in that one gift, one present one person. That only if you take the time to unravel and remove the wrapping of flaws and mistakes of the past, can you truly see someone's heart and feelings and emotions. That at some point, your lives meet and from then on you travel the same path, not because you want to, but because it was always the plan.

Sadly, in times of despair and haste we tend to forget about unraveling the present and only see how badly it wrapped and how small or big it is on the outside. We forget about looking in and taking a peek and maybe giving it a chance to prove itself worthy, and joyful in your life. So as I may have lost a present in my life, I took the time to realize all the other amazing gifts I have gotten, been given and received along my 19 years of existence. I thank everyone of you all who make this journey and amazing one for me, the ones who have hurts me, going to hurt me, making me smile, laugh and literally crack up into a fit of laughter, I thank you all for molding and changing my life into what it is today. For making me the woman I am and going to be, and for all, take note ; I am not giving up. :))

Everything a woman needs

Here is a post for you clueless men out there, a woman who truly loves you only needs three things. Well apart from having a man that is not a total bum and going nowhere what so ever, and someone who is decent and respects not just her as a woman, but all women in general, regardless crazy or not.

The three A's I call it. Attention, Appreciation and Affection. You give her those three,and I guarantee you that you can win her heart and keep her happy. For those women who do not appreciate and after your money . Well you are better off without them anyway.

LOvE

Christmas Wishlist!!

Now for those who do not know about the upcoming event and who have just come ott of a cave somewhere, Christmas is up!!

So as always I have take some time out to make it easier for y'all (with the kindness of my heart), to create my Christmas wishlist to make it a tad bit easier to pick out my present! (you can thank me later)

So my first gift is of course those who know me well have always known that my passion for writing goes beyond comprehension. So for this reason I would like to ask for a publishing deal!!! 

It isn't any biggie when you think of how much good can come out of it. I really am keen to take on the offer (considering I get a fat check at the end or the beginning, not really complaining about the duration)

My second wish is to have something where I can tap into my talent whenever needed. Let us say I am in class and as always I get a phenomenal idea that I have no where to write it down, and of course you may argue that you can write in on your notebook. BUT I ask you, do you really think you would even bother looking for that page? or let say the page tears and then no more idea? Sigh that would be tragic. 


Soooooo with that being said ... my next wish would be a laptop or a notebook!!! ( I prefer Acer by the way)

Any hoo those two for now, need you guys to take a break and sleep it over. Good decisions need to be made! :p

Note : this message needs to be taken seriously.

Someone Special

So I know we have not seen each other in a long long time, yet our hearts are exactly were we left them, if not, grown stronger. It is coming to our 9 months now, and my heart aches knowing that I should be next to you on that amazing day. But as our situation consists of patience and distance, I ask for you to acknowledge this day with me thanking and appreciating you for loving me.

I know that after these trying times, we are going to be stronger than ever and I hope and pray that with each day your blessed with happiness and the chance of your opportunities and dreams coming true. I hope you have the courage of fighting for what you want and the patience to wait and understand for what you need in your life.

And all though you may not be my life, you are one of the most important persons in it, I want to say I love you and I will keep striving to be the best person I can with you by my side and I beside you.

Love you.

For Today not a tomorrow

Hey my lovess!! 

This world only seems to be getting scarier as time goes by . With the recent hurricanes that have showered the world with a grey look on their faces. It makes me think about the whole end of the world in the next couple of weeks. Maybe it is all a great hoo haa and words that have no meaning resounded in them, but a question keeps popping up, what if it is?? 

What if the next 50 over days is all we have left to live our lives and make the promises we once promised a the people around us? What if that is all we have left to complete our bucket list and then , kick the bucket itself? 

It moments like this in my life where I realize that the memories I've had, bad or good are worth looking back on. the ones that made you smile and the ones that made you want to bury yourself in a hole and die. It is because of those memories that we are made of what we are today. Everyone pushes and strives, but somewhere along the road, some stop pushing. They do not see the beauty in their goals anymore. 

So in this foreboding moment ad thought i ponder upon, I leave you with one thing, do something you never thought you would do but you always wanted to. Make someone happy, wipe a tear away, laugh like there wont be a tomorrow and make sure that everything you do is something you want and is going to make you smile. 

We are only promised today, so do not wait for tomorrow <3 font="font">

 

- Much Love - 

a multiple post week.

so I know it has been awhile since i last posted and so for this week you can be blessed or cursed (entirely up to you)with new posts on whats new and whats not. :) stay tuned and watch this space be filled with mundane or interesting news (again, according to what you fancy), and fill your time with being thrilled with not so crazy opinions of mine.
-Much Love-
Cori

Wide Awake At Last

To all, that have wondered where on this Earth I had fallen asleep, I do apologize. Alas, I have woken up and decided to create another post dictating the life that I have been leading for the past couple months.19 going on 20 i have realized that this year has been indeed a roller coaster ride for me.


Going through an emotional stage in my life and facing the hard punishment that I have been running from for years, I recently came face to face with it and made peace with it. During that time I learnt that my true friends were the ones that realised I was not that picture perfect face with the smiled carved at any situation and the strong willed, stubborn girl. I was also breaking down inside. I also realized that my friends are breaking down too but at no point did they hesitate to share their time and spend it with me, no matter the situation they were in.

I also realized that I had issues deep rooted to what had happened in my life and that it somehow affected the way I look at relationships. For that, I need to seek help. I also realized that I do have someone in my life that is willing to stick with it through thick and thin and all though he may have issues and shortcomings that need work, who does not?

One thing I realized that no matter who says no to you, if you want it and you are willing to sacrifice your freedom for the happiness you know it will bring you, it is worth fighting for. NO MATTER HOW LONG IT TAKES.  A year from now I know it will be worth it. # Just pray and keep going.