Monday, December 27, 2010

Heaven Knows where it goes but it returns every year!

Merry Christmas!!
So much love and happiness going round I can barely speak through laughter of joy! Im a pretty happy kid around this time of the year and this year is no exception.

The scrumptious and tantalizingly tasty meals scrumptious succulent lamb leg with a turkey prepared all stuffed. The gravy waiting to be poured, owh yummy!

As much as I enjoy the food the company is far too important to leave out. Friends and family just join in and joke about nothing-ness and total positivity, the past couple of days I've seen miracles take place and am just glad I have everyone who is in my life right now.

Far too many to list but as far as I can tell we are all blessed with something one way or another and this is the moment to open our eyes and appreciate everything around us and live life by giving back.

This year has gone by far too fast where I have learned a lot about myself as well as life. I thank the moments I spent alone with myself as well as others for that.
Merry Christmas and a Happy 2011 everyone!

Monday, November 29, 2010

AA!! Christmas!!


Once again Christmas is approaching and we are all influenced by the joy and happiness and love that radiates from the over excited people such as me. =D

Its that moment of the year where for some reason we find the need to bring the people we hate and the ones we love and just enjoy an atmosphere of absolute tranquility and merriness. The time where we find the need to forget about problems that otherwise would have worried us and just bask in the moment of finding time to laugh and realize what we have been through together.

Sad though that not all the time we attend to ourselves like this special day we keep till the end of the year and cut off communication to people who have made a so-called blunder and pissed you off, till of course, this glorious month or day where for some reason we think and then realize it wasn't that big after all.

Anyway, I just want to wish every one out there the most happiest and merriest time of their life this year. I hope that miracles happen, may it be small ones or big ones let us learn to appreciate them and also let us not just think and remember the less fortunate but let us do something about it as well.

=LOVE=

Monday, November 22, 2010

A Weekend Getaway .

Well the past three days I was on a spiritual retreat with the rest of the Love and Life's facilitating team. Here I experienced the inner most side of me. Being able to see that there are moments to be left behind and be built up again made me realize that sometime we crushed, stepped on broken and just flattened by the obstacles of life, but then once we start to rise we start to mold ourselves and start to create this new lease on life.

We could choose to be molded into something different, something stronger some thing more balanced and stable with a platform able to with-hold any obstacle that comes along the way or just be molded back into the same thing where we tend to fall into the same pit hole where we were last dropped into.

The last three days revealed the abilities that I never knew I possessed and the side I never knew I had anymore.

The side of me sharing my weaknesses and my past was like opening a personal diary an reading it in front of a crowd. Only, this crowd was not just any crowd. This was a crowd with no judgment at hand and only a lending hand to lift me back up.

I also saw side of people that I NEVER thought they had. When you find something out of the unexpected you find yourself in a land that you always dwell in but never lived in. You look but do not see.

It felt good to open up once again.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Explanation to my previous post . =)

Hey peeps!

Well most of you all are wondering what on earth was the last post about. Not to worry, I haven't completely gone insane. The partial sensibility that lingers in me still exists and hence I needed to justify myself for typing out such an absurd post. =)

To start off, The story was a dream I had, of course as you can tell it is not as vivid and articulate as it has been in my dream, but then again I'm not as great as a writer as I intended to be. Then again, practice makes perfect.

The dream was so vivid, I could see the boy's face and I could feel his angst and frustration lying there helpless. Every detail was distinguished and noted down mentally. The blood, the blood when I held it was livid and so graphic and lifelike. It was like I was actually holding it.

I felt the urgency to help the boy to get to the ambulance. I still do not know why but it played a significant part in my dream. Well, to me that is. It's that moment when the boy's mom hugged me and thanked me for helping, I realized I had touched someone.

To me, holding the packet of blood and leading the by towards the ambulance was just a fraction of my life. Something that I may or may not remember but to that boy it was his life. A small action that had tremendous effect and left the mother in tears and myself moved showed me that it was not just the big actions of people that affect us. The most humble thought from our actions could show off to be a milestone to someone else.

At that point I realized what I had done. The ending was more of an answer.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

A prayer

He lay asleep, as the drip fused him with fresh blood. I waited not knowing how I got there. Yet something told me that is where I was supposed to be.

He lay still not moving and I waited looking around. Something told me I had been here before. I couldn't comprehend the people around me or what they were doing. Nurses rushing in and out in a hurry saving one life after the other. I was baffled by my presence yet I stayed and watched with the thought that kept playing on my mind.

I looked at him and wondered what happened. I could not tell what was going on and then, all at once the machines went off. Nurses started to rush in and tried to revive him. I stood there stunned and shocked at the situation before me.

They started to wheel him out of the room and from the building into the ambulance. People stood around and watched. There was yellow tape and somehow we had to get through that. They stopped and tried to get through the barrier. I grabbed the packet of blood and ducked underneath the tape. I lifted the tape up and let them through. Somehow it made sense and once again he could be transferred to the ambulance. I rushed through the crowd and realized outside it was raining they rushed him inside the ambulance.

A woman grabbed me and hugged me and looked into my eyes and smiled. "Thank you for saving my son." Tears trickled down her face and all of a sudden I realized I was sitting beside him all this time. I looked at his helpless body in the ambulance and closed my eyes and prayed out loud the thoughts in my head.

The woman grabbed my arm and then said " This, this is a prayer."

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

The now moment

I never knew a whole year would fly by so fast, it was like I had changed church just yesterday, made the closest of friends made many new and tearful memories and now, now its time to start a new chapter.

No NO , not a new story but just a new chapter. Its funny how when we think that we have all the time in the world that we can just let a few moments pass us by, and just skip a few days by just sleeping in and ignoring our surroundings, forgetting to think about the effects we have by the words we speak and the actions we carry out.

Only thinking about how we can benefit in our ways. Do we listen to what we hear? See what we watch or just move through the day like a lifeless soul carrying on a routine that never seems to end. I wonder do we care on how much we can satisfy ourselves by satisfying others or just find satisfaction in the materialistic world?

We never let our hair down and just sit on the grass and look out and reflect on ourselves and see what we can do to improve how we can just sit back, relax and find hapiness in the smallest moment and smallest gesture given.

Its the sight of watching a child play and watching the scenery of nature without the next hundred chores running through your head. Listening to music and understanding every word said in the song.

Just living in the now moment and not expecting anything a moment later. Just doing all you can at it's very best and just giving with the best of intentions and when it is all over just smiling and telling yourself, "I shared a moment of happiness"

Monday, August 9, 2010

COOKIE TIME

shpeeeps!!

hi my darlings!! well today was not as rough as I would have expected it. Work was fine and not as hectic either. I am inspired!!!!

hahaha I know it is almost unbelievable but it is true . the light bulb has switched on and sparks are flying baybeh! I want to start my own business!! I know I know I can work with my dad under his business but still I prefer to do something I love!!!

Well I want to start baking! I was inspired by my former and most adored boss, Ms.Justina . *i miss you* . Well yes I was lying on my bed and just thinking of ways to just be in total control and then it hit me. Baking cookies! I mean who does not love cookies! Ilurveem! andimprettysureulurveemtoo!! =))

Well yes I already chose my partner in crime but at the moment she is away but when she comes back I am kidnapping her and brainwashing her into believing that we have a multi-billion dollar deal with our cookies. hoyeah!

When that is happening, I shall go back to my creative side of writing nonsense and lands that exist beyond this planet that only me and my friends visit but you cant see of course and magical friends I have that make me the cool and awesome person that I am today. Iknow, Iknow, I am not praising myself and giving myself the credit I deserve. =p .

Ill tell you how it goes my love .

=LOVE=

Friday, August 6, 2010

It feels different and I love it!

Shpeeps!!!

I know I know its been far too long that i have stayed away but I'm here now so fret not I say!

Well a lot has happened since I last posted I guess. Its like nothing stays the same ever huh??

Well well, where can I start? I am officially done with my foundation course! yup yup that's me right here. The girl who had doubt completing high school going all out and saying she is done with foundation.

Got a 3.23 CGPA. Not the best but then yea, nothing can be done about it now so just strive ahead for the future!

It is quite funny though, at this very point last year I was done with my O levels and now I am done with foundation.So what next?? Well next year I shall be off to Australia doing a degree.

It is a bitter sweet moment or a phase of life if I may, realising that the people I have around me are beyond awesome and just mind blowingly fun. I could ask for a better chosen family to be put to take care of me.

Jeremy of course yes your the first I want to thank for being there for me and listen to me crap to my bored out of my mind days and making me laugh when nothing ever seems right and then the most important part off all giving me strength and motivation to just continue going forward and teaching me that I truly do have the power within me to accomplish and get through all situations in my life.


Damzie! haha . sigh, you know something ........ I never thought we would ever, EVER be this close the way we are now. I am just glad I got you in my life. A hug from you takes every problem away cause for some reason I know you can reason out with me to be rational and use the hard way. thanks bro!

Joy! . For some reason we two connect so well and the heart to heart talks we have and we share personal experiences and being there for me through love n life and helping me grow and realise that I have so much more to offer. Joy thank you so much for everything

Jeff. =p . well we have come a long way havent we? haha . whatever it is,I am glad we stayed friends because I dunno what I would have done without you. You are a blessing to me Jeff and a really awesome person. Although there are times I could strike you with an axe, I opt for a reasonable action and just insult you. Jeff thank you for everything I honestly learned a lot. You thought me to grow and we all know it, I have changed for the better in this past year.

Theres so many others as well . like patrick, justin, sheeba, kat, jerome, tishay, emmanuel, and all the others I fail miserably to mention over here.

Looking at this, I am starting to realise that I am truly blessed with the best and no matter where I go or where I am I'll be able to get through each day knowing I've got the best group possible behind me for moral support. What else can I ask for ??


=LOVE=

Sunday, February 14, 2010

thoughts and feelings.

Heyloo shpeeps!!
well today im going to make two posts because there is a lot on my mind.... SIGH! well i shall start of by saying i had an awesome time with mark, emmanuel, jerome,zanne, hazel,cyn adam n matt. i laughed like a total tard and had and uber awesome time at kfc with them. unfortunately it was cut short because i had to leave and go for a lunch at my god mother's house which is where i am currently at.XD.

nehoo i wanna give a cheers to cyn n mark's relationship giv it all the love and effort you both can offer.
next off, i wanna give a shout out to all the lover's out there who is still sticking by there significant one eventhough their other half has already thrown in the towel. i raise a toast to y'all!! stick in there coz fighting for love is worth it more than fighting for anything else.

well what can i say??
i am at lis's place listening to her play unrhytmic music and composing a song which has utterly no words but just a constant stuttering of fits . =S . yes i know, catastrophic.

anyhoo!! i have like this dying urge to tell you about what is on my mind!! just when you think you know your best friend quite well and there is nothing wrong in your friendship.... GUESS AGAIN!!
=(
i thought we were close me and him and that nothing could be hidden from eachother. but i was wrong. sigh i guess he has his reasons and i understand and respect that and in due time he would have told me. but it still doesnt stop the hurt. sigh . well i still love him as my very own teddy and i really do wish this conflict doesnt dissolve our friendship but we only learn to respect a certain boundary between eachother and make us stronger as friends. =/.

=LOVE=

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Results!!!

AYE!!!
Well first off I do apologize for the owh so late posting but its been a real hectic time. Anyway I just got my results for sem2!!! well i got A-,A- and a B+ . it is good although I do wish I got straight A's this semester .... sigh. well I have my last semester so got to pump up the volume and energy to keep the midnight oil burning!!

Anyway , tomorrow is valentines day and chinese new year .. so your either getting the money coming your way or the love, and for some , both heading straight at you.

But as you recieve, lets just take the time to reflect and give some back. After all, it is all about the love right?!?!?

-cori-

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Couldnt Ask For A Better Chosen Family

Heyloo peeps!!

Well i wanted to start off by saying that i am glad i have a certain few someones in my life. <3

a MONTH ago i went to a week long camp, "Love & Life" , and i have to admit it is the best thing i have done so far. I am just proud that i decided to go, and it cleared my conscience and doubt within myself. I made so many new friends that i proudly call my family. *tear*

Today i met them again, i couldn't attend any of the outings and for my fellow lnls, i do apologize for not coming, but i had no transportation. Well anyway, i attended the meeting and as i entered the room, i was showered by love. It a feeling of happiness that no restraint can hold back. It felt so good to be back, it was like going home to see your family after being away from them for a year. The hugs were genuine and and the smiles were heart warming. This family is definitely the one i want. <3

Monday, January 11, 2010

First day back. <3

Olryt people's!!

well well wot can i say?? it was my first day back to college and it was actually quite nice. Well it started of with me hating to wake up in the morning and i took an extended half and hour in bed. =p . well excuse me but i had quite a lazy routine during the holidays of sleeping late and to wake up at 5 in the morning was pretty difficult. So i think i need a pat on the back for being on time today. LOL.

It started of with Malaysian Media History which was rather interesting and i paid attention and took notes. *Mind you this was at 8 in the morning.* After that we bumped into Mr.Julien who met us with good news. =)) our IIT exam was moved a day behind so we have an extra day. Then was English which for some reason was not as boring as the other lessons we have had in the past. Although i still wanted to get out of there as fast as i could. I was starving okay .... =.=

After that it was the end since we had no tutorials this week and so me and Charmaine spent the rest of the day in the Media Hub facebooking and printing out notes. =)) . we had a swell time, although Charmaine did her usual and printed out four sets for god knows what reason. =.=

After that we decided to call it quits and headed back home. on the way to the KTM station we met Sien who accompanied us because she was heading home as well. it was quite a productive day.

=Love=

P.s. - did i forget to mention we were making fun of the new intakes?? Guess i did . it was funtabulous. Hee. XD . we are evil . deal with it .

Saturday, January 9, 2010

ENOUGH WITH RELIGION!

Well this post is for all those who do not know what has happened the past couple of days.

Churches were torched and vandalised and there was a march towards saint francis xavier's church the other day. WHY??? is this really necessary?? its the beginning of a new millenium and is this what we have to show for it?? how narrow minded and immature we can be? we have to realize that we live in a multi- racial society and if we cannot accept this, we are only kidding ourselves that we belong to a harmonious and safe country.

I would also say that we are partly to blame because we have gone for years using the word GOD. why is there a sudden urge to start changing the word?? wasn't "GOD" good enough for us to use? We need to look at it from their point of view as well, i bet we were all startled when we heard of "ALLAH" in the church. So, if we were shocked how do you think it would make them feel? We have to look at the situation from both sides! Nevertheless, this does not justify what some people have done to our churches but all I am trying to say is that we should take time and look at the situation clearly and try to understand people's actions and what was their reason behind it.

LETS START BEING RATIONAL!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Scheduling Time!!

Guh !!
Today was like EXHAUSTING!!!
was at Lisa's in the morning just chilled there watched the tele and spoke. Then went back home and did a bit of studyin ..... Yeh I know.... i have my mid-terms next week. I am in the middle of scheduling all my meetings and assignments so yea im still on the verge of being organized.


I then worked out came back ate dinner took down the christmas tree and all the deco. and now here I am sitting down n writing on my blog. =) .


Too many friends getting sick these days. )= . sad really. they are in no mood what so ever to even draw a smile on their face. sigh ................ gotta get them summin to cheer em up??

I spoke to someone I haven't spoken to in like MONTHS!!! it nearly scared me to say hi but I wished him happy new year anyway. I mean we can still be friends right??? RIGHT?? Besides its just a break up, not an annihilation of our friendship. Oh dear Michael nope i haven't forgotten bout you. LOL .

Tomorrow will be my first day of directing!!! I LOVE MYSELF!! haha , I haven't directed and this will be the chance I get to show my skills. im like sooo excited. =)))) . well let see what happens ehh??? *fingers crossed*

Anyway shpeeps,
im like a dying battery waiting in anticipation to be charged ..... i need the bed i beg and plead!! so imma take my bum and walk away ...... =D
=Love=

Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy New Year!!

Well well .
i apologize for my owh so late post .
i realize i haven't posted in ages!! well it was the Christmas n new year season ... so i have a valid reason....
owh !! by the way!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 2010!!
how weird!! its like time has just passed us by without us even realizing it!! sigh..... what can i say???
i remember how 2009 started with me preparing for my mocks, then my o levels and then getting ready for prom.... College started ... thought at first i was never going to make it out alive .... heh . Made new friends got new responsibilities ... and then December came ... funny innit???

Looking back ... i think in 2009 , i made some pretty good choices that i am very proud of. *pats to me*

Anyway, glad to be finally posting something . =D

-Love-