Love Never Fails

So it has been a very long time since I last posted a blog. Today is Christmas Eve, and here I am sitting in front of the computer posting a blog.

Well with that being said, I need to get something of my chest. Everyone wants to be with someone. Everyone wants to feel that special inkling of knowing that the person next to them is their one and only. The dismal truth about it is, that we do not want to take the effort to get to know someone. We want to speed through the whole process of meeting someone, getting to know them and within a week we are a couple.

As easy as that may be it s harder to keep it going, for as they may be no more spark as how it was in the beginning. I am no professional in relationships but if I had to be in a relationship, I would want one that I am the person's best friend and lover at the same time.

So how about this Christmas we just spread the love and joy with friends, family, lovers and even enemies.. you never know you may just be charmed ;)

exams and assignments

So once again after taking a long hiatus from blogging, I am back. This time, I blog about something I have blogged numerous times before: Assignments and exams.
After the never ending cycle of exams and assignments have once again come around, I only have one thing to say, KILL ME NOW!

This sem is overall a pretty bad sem and I just cant wait for it to be over and done with. With all sorts of drama occurring in the past few months since it has started, I need a break ASAP.

Now it is just assignments that are due in a few coming weeks and exams just around the corner. I'll need to take a rain check on all exciting events that may resemble some sort of a social life.

Just a few more weeks to go!! *fingers and toes crossed*

Let the countdown begin!

Sitting Near A nEW hIGH

So it is almost time to head back to a new sem. All I am hoping for is one sane sem where I do not fall all over someone for their kind words and gentle smile. PLEASE!

I have once again bounced back and put my boxing gloves up. So instead of fighting against misery, let it linger around and lets get to feel loneliness and its friends.

I would never have thought that being here today I would have learnt to deal with immature childishness at a counseling level! As much as I am recovering from doomsday, I also have this small voice inside me saying to keep fighting.

How do I know when to stop? Sigh .... the lesson of letting go ...

back down to misery, im company once again

So, I know it has been quite a while since I last posted something. Only to let you know that once again I've been signed up to the wagon of misery and pain. Ironically it takes you to a place where rainbows and sunshine is. Also known as the other side of life.

A close friend once told me that in order to get to the rainbow we need to go through the rain. So here I am listening to what we would call this day in age the emo-ness of life and a moment to think life through.

I was always that independent person and all of a sudden I've been crushed down by a the few words that pierced through my heart an d ripped the old wounds open.

Time heals everything. Or that is what I've heard. So I'll sit here and wait till this pain washes away and once again, I can start a new chapter in my life.

-LoVe-

I NEED RESULTS

So its been like a month since we completed my first sem. and I am still waiting for my results.

Like seriously how long does it take for you to mark papers and get them re-checked?

I'm just fed up want to know my grades and then start preparing myself for next sem.

Not that hard isn't it? Sigh need to calm down ...... zzzzzz

time

I miss the way i fall into your arms

The way I know when I'm with you nothing can bother me

The way you look at me and the smile I fall for each time

The way your arms snake around me and I fall deeper into your embrace

The taste of you that takes me higher each time

The moments of seeing you coming to see me

It feels like nothing has changed and at the same time everything is changing in front of my eyes.

Loving you to no extent that I wake up everyday wishing I woke up next to you.

Time stands still when I 'm next to you, Nothing can be too long with you

I LOVE YOU

A little gold dust on top of his head :)

So for all who know me and the picky person I am with people, I am glad to tell you that I got a blessing put upon me. With every second I type this it brings me happiness to know that my mind keeps diverting to the happy moment of being with him. I never knew I could find someone that is lovable, affectionate, caring funny and the person that I could forget about every care in the world.

Your my happy lovebug and my lucky charm . I LOVE YOU . :)

PICTURES WILL BE UPLOADED LATER

CRAMPING TIME

So it has been quite awhile since I last posted something on my blog and I know that its kinda lame the only reason I'm here is to went about assignments and exams.

So as I had said earlier that assignments and exams are a killer at the moment, I find it hard to make time for other things such as socializing, and taking a breather. I cant wait till this sem is done and I practically have a bit of space and time to just kick back and relax.

Exams another big doodoo at the moment. :) In two weeks and I haven't even flipped a page and no sense of urgency whatsoever runs through me. DISAPPOINTMENT

I honestly hope these next few weeks run through smoothly and swiftly. Will be back soon!

<3

Friends

So this poster I found whle browsing through google images. I t made me think twice about the way I've been taking life recently. Moping and sulking about things that obviously do not bother me. I cant be the serious one all the time but I try to fix things the least possible.

One thing is for sure, I have the best of friends around me to hold my head up and keep me going. Zanne, Cyn, Aaron, Jojo, you guys got me up when I thought there was no point of going on anymore. You stood by me and protected me when everyone thought I was the one at fault.

Ive learned to live without judgement, without thinking low of others. and looking at myself now, learning that I gave everything was just thrown away and not even appreciated hurts.

But so what? shit happens, deal with it and I'm slowly realizing that come what may, I have myself to pull me through and all in all. Im pretty strong with the love around me.

Love you guys!

Happy Mother's Day

This post is to someone special
I know they wont read it anytime soon
But I just hope everyone that reads this will say a prayer tonight
I knew you when I was down, low in spirit and didn't know how to get back up
It was you that trusted me and spoke to me
It was you that loved me and cared for me
It was you that gave me freedom and backed me up
Now, seeing you lying there makes me think
Where did all my courage go
I cant help you the way you helped me
Nevertheless you smiled and remembered me
Your strength and love is never ending
I know you will beat this
Walk and talk again
You will be fine
<3

Changes

Nothing changes the way I feel for you
Something I can tell was our love, that was true
I know we left a lot unsaid
and I know sometimes its best to keep it that way
But each time I close my eyes
Thoughts of you and I
I miss the hug, the warm embrace
The delight of seeing your face
The smile that made me warm inside
The love you showered without any pride
But somehow that changed, you changed
I held my breath and begged for you to stay
I swallowed my pride and strode ahead
I sulked and moped for as long as I could
But chin up and smile I thought I should
The quivering curve on my face I could no longer pull
I cried and prayed come back please
My wish I knew was hard to fulfill
I'm moving on, or at least I'm trying
Your what I wanted I want you by my side
A kiss and a hug, I fell for you
Now all I want is the love we value
Mark, I hate how you made me feel
I love the moments we shared, we were not the best
there were moments were I transgressed
There were times you would have absurd requests
But now it's over and done
This love was over before it begun

Depressed

Couldn't think of a better title than something that actually describes the way I'm feeling. Im just sick and tired of putting on the face that says the whole world is filled with sunshine and rainbows. I'm sick and tired of listening to everyone's lifelong history all catastrophic events and sudden urge to just sulk in misery.

So maybe this may come as a shock to you, but I hurt! I feel every emotion that just lives and breeds inside of me. I'm not usually the person that has a breakdown and shows it to the whole world. I am just another person among the millions who wants to be heard and understood. To be loved and embraced with arms welcoming at any moment.

I'm sick and tired of being put as second best and left to fend for myself. I never asked for the moon or the stars but just your love. Something I gave you with my whole heart. Some people say never to expect anything in return, I should have done the same. Should have forgotten and just walked away when you said it was over. Yet, I guess it was stubbornness that took over and I fought for you back, and I cried and pleaded for the most. I thought it would all be good, That we would give it one more try and it would be great. We would work on it and just be okay.

Then again, there I go making events and imaginary moments that I wish would happen and am I wrong to think of a happy ending? Was one not made for me? I worked and will work for a happy ending, and yes I'll still wish and hope your with me there too.

And A Learnin Curve

So people ask me what happens as you grow old
My reply "nothing really, just cranky and whiny as each day passes"
Or that is what I used to say. I realize if you learn something as you grow older, why then are we not happy about life? Don't we have the knowledge to grow and become wiser and learn what is best and decide what truly brings us happiness? What is the point of learning about everything and not gaining satisfaction and a serene calmness within ourselves, learning to live with happiness and accepting the consequences of situations learning to live with loss?

Maybe after all, the less you have the more you appreciate, the more you appreciate the more you learn to love and soon we try to grow in that love and accept moments that have brought smiles and tears that appeared once on our faces and have now been only a memory from our past. If only we could learn this lesson now, when it has taken people their entire life to learn to let go and forget about having total control of your life

I would know, I'm still trying to understand my life lesson, :)

-LOVE-

Thrown and Forgotten Once Again

It not how much I put myself in
Just how much I trusted you
I gave you all I never have before
Once again left on the floor
Trying to gain confidence
Telling myself I'll do this without you
I let myself go when we met
Losing myself while trying to find you
I was embraced by your hostility towards me
Maybe I was right to stay away
You were to strong and I fell for you
Now all I do is wish you once more with me
Why is it so hard for me to let you go?
When at first I said no
I wish and hope I'll feel this with you again
Once again I shake my head and say what the hell
I thought i made it to a perfect beginning
Then after all, what was I thinking
I succumbed to everything you put me through
Left devastated, I felt like a fool
I'm moving on, don't worry about me.
Just take care off yourself and life your life happily

As we progress . . . .

I was thinking about all the technology in the world and all the advantages that we fortunate people have as we are "moving forward" and gaining insight to everything. Ijust question one thing, what about the people who are sitting about on the streets wondering where their life went by?

Does anyone think about them for second when we are "facebooking" and complaining why the hell the internet connection is so damn slow because it opens up the web page a few seconds later?

Everyone marvels at the work of intellectuals who have the ability to change technology and do good for us, but what I want is for us to start making a change for others who don't use the internet , and a blackberry is still considered a fruit. To the old folks abandoned in homes, and the children with no place to stay, the women who live alone with trying hard to make ends meet by begging on streets, lets start "moving forward" over there. We may not help all of them, but one is enough to start a change and if possible, set an influence on a minority, then that minority may double to become a majority some day. I don't want to get ahead of myself and I probably already am, but its worth a try since we have nothing to loose and only one thing to gain and to share, LOVE.

lets make a change.

Something New?

2011

happy new year everyone!

I love and appreciate you all . Have a splendid year filled with success, love and happiness.

Be determined and ambitious and strive for everything you put in front of you.

The world is truly your oyster.

Much Love and God Bless